matter/antimatter: matters of work

decomposition (w)hole

it’s the end of the semester. i have to do. make. awash at sea never felt such focused seeing.

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Finishing up my quest for time during the week. The latter half of the week was unusual due to my birthday, a broken car, and a trip to Buffalo.

Thursday

6:00-8:30 feed cat, make/eat breakfast and coffee, grading, email, get ready for the day

8:30-10:00 walk to school, meet with Derek and Joe

10:00-10:30 make copies, work on unit two plans

10:30-11:00 gather/organize stuff, walk to library

11:00-1:00 tutor in the APC

1:00-1:30 walk back to office, eat lunch

1:30-2:00 prepare for lab

2:00-3:30 lead lab guided study, gather stuff for home

3:30-5:30 eat snack, call/text/send messages thanking people for birthday cards/wishes/gifts

5:30-6:30 back and forth calls with mom about dinner plans, find out dad’s car broke down getting me a pastry, revise evening plans

6:30-7:30 drive home to be with family for birthday dinner

7:30-8:00 email, online shopping

8:00-8:30 pick up dad from dealership

8:30-10:00 birthday dinner and presents with family

10:00-11:00 dad prepares car for trip to Buffalo

11:00-11:30 drive back

11:30-12:30 begin packing, get cat care stuff ready for my parents

12:30-6:00 sleep

Friday

6:00-9:30 feed cat, make coffee/breakfast, grade, pack, get ready

9:30-10:00 walk to library

10:00-11:00 UWC meeting

11:00-11:30 walk back, give mom cat care directions

11:30-12:00 eat lunch, finish packing

12:00-1:00 grade, enter grades

1:00-8:00 drive to Buffalo

8:00-12:00 order pizza, hang out, watch movies

12:00-9:00 sleep

Saturday

9:00-10:30 lazing about, getting ready for the day

10:30-5:00 trip to the Cider Mill and neighboring graveyard for fall delights and pumpkin purchasing, exploration of Allentown by foot (book store and antique shops), lunch, venturing to downtown Buffalo a la pie

5:00-6:30 attempted to watch a story from “fright classic” DVD, checked email

6:30-8:30 walk/wait for dinner

8:30-9:00 walk back

9:00-12:00 watch horror movies

12:00-8:00 sleep

Sunday

8:00-11:00 get ready, pack, search/walk for breakfast places in the area, general lazing

11:00-12:00 causal breakfast

12:00-12:30 walk back

12:30-1:00 prepare the car for travel

1:00-7:30 drive back to Michigan

7:30-9:00 unpack, put away laundry and groceries, prepare living space for the upcoming week

9:00-12:00 grading, lesson planning, homework, catching up on email, development of conference presentations for WIDE-EMU

12:00-5:00 sleep

Despite moments of near insanity in which I counted minutes in between obligations/doings that I could have filled with work, I found myself searching for “free” time during which my attention could be divided. The biggest waste of time is certainly during periods of transit; these times are almost torturous as you have the time/space/silence to think, but not the ability to record this work. Something I think I may want to try is more structured note taking on the go or in between to prevent idea evaporation. Another take-away, more blogging. It leaves a trace of work, can be short, can give the illusion of accountability. I think daily blogging may be an integral piece of working through my MA project (and developing myself as an active scholar).

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WEDNESDAY

5:00-5:30 feed cat, make coffee, eat breakfast

5:30-6:00 finish up today’s lessons/materials

6:00-6:30 shower/get ready

6:30-7:00 get ready

7:00-7:30 walk to school

7:30-8:00 meet with student

8:00-8:30 teach

8:30-9:00 teach

9:00-9:30 teach, return to office

9:30-10:00 meet with student

10:00-10:30 try to organize messy desk, talk with Joe about conference presentation

10:30-11:00 walk to writing center, look through free maps for interesting texts, eat snack

11:00-11:30 tutoring

11:30-12:00 tutoring

12:00-12:30 tutoring

12:30-1:00 tutoring

1:00-1:30 walk to office, look for readings

1:30-2:00 look for readings

2:00-2:30 scan readings

2:30-3:00 add to gradebook, organize collected materials and attendance to work on spreadsheet

3:00-3:30 lesson plan/talk with Becky for class

3:30-4:00 teaching with Becky

4:00-4:30 teaching

4:30-5:00 teaching, walk back to office talking about planning

5:00-5:30 update courseshell announcement, email class with work for Monday, upload documents

5:30-6:00 eat dinner, read for class

6:00-6:30 read for class

6:30-7:00 class

7:00-7:30 class

7:30-8:00 class

8:00-8:30 class

8:30-9:00 class

9:00-9:30 class, walk home talking to dad, discover fourth light bulb of the past two weeks is out

9:30-10:00 look for light bulbs, listen to music

10:00-10:30 email, try to figure out bill issue, text family members back for birthday wishes

10:30-11:00 play with cat, tidy up apartment

11:00-11:30 blog addalogs

11:30-12:00 blog for conference presentation 1

12:00-12:30 blog for conference presentation 2

12:30-6:00 sleeping

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TUESDAY

6:00-6:30 feed cat, make coffee and breakfast

6:30-7:00 washed dishes

7:00-7:30 online bills, budgeting, and email

7:30-8:00 read for class

8:00-8:30 read for class

8:30-9:00 showered/got ready

9:00-9:30 got ready to leave house

9:30-10:00 walk to school

10:00-10:30 tutoring at the writing center

10:30-11:00 tutoring

11:00-11:30 tutoring

11:30-12:00 tutoring

12:00-12:30 tutoring

12:30-1:00 tutoring

1:00-1:30 walk back to office, eat lunch

1:30-2:00 looked for imagetexts for mean making lesson

2:00-2:30 teaching guided lab

2:30-3:00 teaching guided lab

3:00-3:30 teaching guided lab (until 3:15), class (3:30)

3:30-4:00 class

4:00-4:30 class

4:30-5:00 class

5:00-5:30 class

5:30-6:00 class

6:00-6:30 collect stuff, walk home, phone call

6:30-7:00 make dinner, hunt escaped cat

7:00-7:30 worked in Google Docs on conference presentation with Chelsea and Becky

7:30-8:00 worked in Google Docs

8:00-8:30 started a post in my blog for my phase two of WIDE-EMU

8:30-9:00 read about a concert I want to go to; spread the word to comrades to caravan to the event

9:00-9:30 discovered new music; fell into internet wormhole

9:30-10:00 tried to work on unit two calendar

10:00-10:30 tried to go to sleep

10:30-11:00 got up to get a book to read in bed (to try to go to sleep)

11:00-11:30 got up and started working on my lesson plan

11:30-12:00 lesson planning (finding imagetexts and building slidedeck)

12:00-12:30 lesson planning/making

12:30-5:00 sleeping

metaphors to move by-like a talking head

The last few days I have been feeling more like a hum than a person (whatever that means). So today I did things slowly. I went for a run and planted my feet on the asphalt slowly. I washed the dishes slowly. I walked the aisles of Meijer slowly. My goal was something sort of meditative, finding a kernal of zen within chaos, but I just ended up feeling like the way David Byrne carries himself (whatever that means).

I wanted to interact with the spaces and things that I use frequently with more than passing attention, or non-attention. I often say that I’m a ‘space cadet’ or ‘heady’ or ‘zoned out’, all of these denoting a state of being awash in thought without a particular anchor; so today I tried to use the space of my head as a sort of gallery or medical amphitheater – experience and interact with these (now) curated things taken for granted. All I really got was a good laugh. But, I will note, it did feel removed, like I was experiencing it in some sort of sensory exhibit (the next D). There’s probably a Radiolab on that.

life passes in lists

one: making lists of lists, both smaller and larger. consolidate, expand, and the subcompact to-do. rank according to priority, checks and bullets, red ink, highlights. summer slippage; july, I wasn’t done with june yet.

lists: a number of connected items, or scenes of combat/contest, or as a selvage of a piece of fabric, or as a want, and lastly as a lean (of a ship) to one side because of unbalanced cargo. definitions all befitting

two: I haven’t figured out better (not even best) note taking practices yet. This goes for getting myself organized and while I’m reading. I sat down today to write in my paperbound journal, and for the first time found myself questioning if it was a useful practice, as I increasingly find myself doing when I take notes on paper (this is probably exacerbated by the fact that I float from notebook to notebook with no rhyme or reason or trail of breadcrumbs).

three:

  • I got a graduate assistantship, though not as a first year writing instructor
  • I registered to take the GRE. The prep books arrived today, therefore it is (a) reality
  • I miss being in classes
  • After listlessly living at home for 23 months, I am making lists of apartments to rent near campus

four: bullet, vertical, horizontal, glossary, bibliography, discography, etymology, category, pros and cons